Christmas 2

We had our family Christmas here yesterday. Everyone was here except my brother in law & niece. It was a wonderful time and we all enjoyed ourselves visiting and just being with each other. I found that yesterday was the worst day yet for missing Dennis. I cooked the entire meal except one pie. I know exactly what Dennis would have been doing if he had been here with me. He enjoyed cooking and helping me cook. He would have been totally involved with all of it. PLUS we would have had a least one more potato dish (sweet potatoes) and some type of jello salad. Neither of which I did. Everyone felt the loss of not having Dennis with us for the day. We have had Christmas here at our home for the past two years. So although we all felt sadness, we all did enjoy being with each other & being together. As Willie & I talked today, you just never know what tomorrow may bring. It is so important to be with those you love and are close to whenever you can. Do not miss an opportunity because everything can change extremely quickly..........you just don't know..................

Snow, Snow, Snow

We had a lot of wind last night & snow. Perhaps not that much snow (only an inch on the snow board) ---------but the wind took all the snow it could find & blew it into all the plowing I did yesterday. I did the driveway/yard and the alpaca field yesterday afternoon. I had to redo about 1/2 of the yard/driveway this morning. The snow plow came by about 9 am & pushed the snow from the middle of the road to the side INCLUDING in front of the mailbox................so I had to plow out in front of the mailbox to help the mailman. I am no longer able to plow around the garage area to the east as there are too many big drifts. I do not think I can get into the alpaca field again either...............too many drifts. They seem to be getting around ok & perhaps we will need to do some more hand shoveling...........time will tell. Wolf Creek Pass got over 24 inches overnight. Of course the ski area is open but the pass is closed so who knows who can make it up to ski as it appeared that both ends were closed. La Veta pass is closed also. Tomorrow is supposed to be better & I certainly hope it is.

At least my home area is clear tomorrow for the fiber ladies when they show.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to each of you out there in cyber land. We went to our Christmas Eve church service last night. It was good except for missing Dennis. He would have been singing with the praise team. We then went to a friend's house for an hour or so & had some food and a good time visiting. They did not want us to be alone on Christmas eve.

Today, originally my Aunt & Mother were going to come for Christmas...........but it is snowing & doesn't look like it will quit. My Aunt doesn't want to drive in bad weather (20 miles) and I really don't want to either. So they will spend a quiet day alone and Willie & I will still have our widowed neighbor across the street over for a Christmas meal. On Sunday my brother & wife will be here from Houston, so we will have our family Christmas on Sunday with most of my siblings here & Mom.

I hope your day is a wonderful day as you celebrate the birth of God's son, Jesus.

Special time, Special people

Yesterday my first husband's brother & wife came for a quick visit. They live in Belen, NM. It has been about 2 1/2 years since we last saw them. They would have been here for Dennis' memorial but were out of the country when he died & didn't make it back in time. So they came for a quick visit on their way to Kansas/Southeastern CO for Christmas. We had a good visit and it was so great to see them again.

In the meantime we got another inch of snow this morning. I've been plowing out with the ATV since I didn't do a "great" job last week. Everything was going well until about 11 am when the wench broke on the ATV. DUH, just when I thought I had everything "ready to go". Anyway the wire shredded or split or whatever it does when it breaks. So I have a friend who is getting it fixed for me.

I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas.

The Twins

The twins that aren't twins but look like twins are named.

When my friend was here from CA almost two weeks ago we talked about naming them. Then it struck me that perhaps Dennis' grandchildren, Tyler & Travis would either like to name them--- or name the cria after them. After much consultation (thank you Sandi) the conclusion came to::: The lighter colored cria who was born first will be named Tyler & the darker one will be Travis.

Sunday's

I think Sunday's are the worst. I miss seeing Dennis up on stage singing with the praise team. Sometimes it's hard to even sing. Sunday was a special day in our home, the one day that was different than the rest of the week.

This time of the year has so many memories anyway and most of them are related to grieving. My daughter was born at 28 weeks back in 1980 on Nov. 24th, a Monday (just like this year). She was very ill and this was before many of the new medications for premature babies. She died Dec. 2nd. My first husband had a bone marrow transplant in 1987. He was admitted to the hospital on June 16th and died December 25th without ever leaving the hospital. My father died unexpectedly the Saturday after Thanksgiving 3 years ago. Now Dennis is gone also, and at the same time of the year. But still Sunday's are the hardest and when I miss him the most as far as days of the week.

In the meantime I have managed to get all my Christmas cards done. I have bought all the presents and mailed them off. I'm planning on a small Christmas get together here on Christmas day with a larger one on the 28th when my brother & his wife are here.

The alpaca seem to be doing well & enjoying the cold weather (unlike me).

I wish everyone a Merry Christmas and most of all show love to your loved ones & let them know how much you love each one of them. Remember Christ, He loves us each one. I praise God for His love & guidance shown to me not only all through my life but especially the past 5 weeks. Praise His Name.

One Month

Well, it has been one month or 4 weeks and 2 days since Dennis' accident and death. Sandi (his daughter) and I were talking one day about how it seems like forever since it happened and how it seems like yesterday at the same time. I know that will stay true for a while due to having been in this place before. I miss him.

Today has been a snowy day. We've had at least 3 - 4 different snow storms that have come through & it is only 3 pm. The last one is blowing through now. I managed to plow out the female alpaca field pretty well. I've partly done the driveway area. The wind is blowing & blowing with gusts up to 35 mph right now. Really a good day to stay inside.

Tomorrow I'm hoping Spring will arrive!! : ) I know, what a crazy thing to say ---- but I think this winter is gong to be a lot like last winter with a lot of SNOW and COLD. So I'm more than ready for Spring. I'm just not going to hold my breath.